<will not cry, will not cry, will not cry>
In truth, I already cried all the way home from dropping him off. I am a very independent type in many ways, and I have never actually had trouble with Jon leaving before for trips. But this is the longest he will have been away since the kids were born, and well, for whatever reason this time I am just really really sad, and even a little fearful. I’m feeling for my anxious friends at the moment, my heart and guts are twisted up with probably the strongest feeling of anxiety/fear I think I’ve ever experienced. Not sure what that means, or if it means anything… but it’s a new sensation and it’s certainly not pleasant.
I’ll do my best to write a post about what they are doing there and all that, but right now I’m feeling a little empty, so I think a movie in bed is what I need to settle down for the night in my quiet house. I may use this blog as a little Nepal journal for the next 10 days, filling it with pics of the kids for Jon and updates of his trip for everyone else, hope that’s ok!